Go Choke Yourself

Sun, 27 Dec 2009 04:54:44 GMT

Sometimes, whenever I eat M&Ms, I like to hold two m&m's in between my fingers and squeeze as hard as I can until one m&m cracks. I eat the cracked one, and the one that didn't crack becomes the champion. Then I grab the other m&m, and force it to compete with the champion in this deadly game of m&m gladiators. I do this until I run out of m&m's, and when there is only one m&m left standing, I send a letter to m&m's brand with the champion m&m in it with a note attached that reads: "Please use this m&m for breeding purposes."

Sat, 26 Dec 2009 03:13:08 GMT

Merry Christmas Everyone!!
Hope you all had a nice and safe Christmas.

Tue, 22 Dec 2009 06:00:15 GMT

You can't tell me that Jesus wants a relationship with me, because we had one..and he was the one that dumped me. So forgive me for not giving two shits about Jesus.

Tue, 15 Dec 2009 05:45:19 GMT

Jeremy's brother is having a baby girl.

I'm envious.

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 18:57:07 GMT

I was in a poo mood but not anymore.

The phone rings, in the middle of the night,
My father yells 'What you gonna do with your cheese?'

Which song was this lyric from?

If you wanna be my lover,
you gotta get with my cheese.

Which song was this lyric from?

I kissed a cheese and I liked it.

Which song was this lyric from?

Wed, 09 Dec 2009 05:44:42 GMT

Jeremy, my parents and I went to a comedy show Saturday night. My cousins Kristin and Megan were supposed to go with us but Meg called last minute and canceled because she was "sick". Come to find out she wasn't sick at all. They ended up going to Wicks. Seriously? I want to punch her in the face. I hate when people lie to me. If you didn't want to go you should have just said so. Why lie about it? Megan just keeps reminding me of why I dislike her so much. She lies to her family. She lies to her friends. And she's one of those people that get everything they want. Makes me wonder how someone so two-faced and contradicting can have such an "amazing" life and get away with so much. Then their are people like myself who go through so much shit and get nothing.

I seriously want to punch someone!

Sorry, I need to vent.

/bitchiness

On a side note, the comedy show was good. Had fun. My mom never does anything, so I was shocked when she said she would go. I only wish she did more stuff with me. Just saying that makes me want to cry. [sigh] I wish I didn't have mommy issues.

Riley is 6 weeks today.

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 07:27:22 GMT

Me: I want to be pregnant again..

Jeremy: You shut your mouth.

Hahahahaha. I did this with Lavin too.

Wed, 02 Dec 2009 04:31:02 GMT

Why will Riley not sleep?!!!
Going crazy over here.

Sat, 28 Nov 2009 17:59:04 GMT

I'm pretty sure Riley has Colic. He'll cry uncontrollably at times (usually the evening) and there is nothing Jeremy and I can do to comfort him. Needless to say there are times when we'll just put him in his swing and let him cry for a while. This way we can recollect ourselves and what not. My dad got on me for doing this and pretty much made me feel like a piece of shit for it. I flipped out on him. Which brings me to this....

I do believe my depression has significantly worsened since I had Riley. I'm so much more angry. And I feel like any day now I could just lose control. Every time I get upset I just want to punch or throw something. I want to cry all the time too. Even when I'm laughing. I just really want to cry. When I do laugh it's uncontrollable too. It's not like I can see someone for any of this either. After Dec. 4th I won't have insurance anymore. One week with a Psychiatrist and/or Therapist won't do me any good. And I don't have the money to just go. This is bad. Really bad.

Also, sorry I haven't been commenting lately. I have been reading though.
Annnnd it's late but Happy Thanksgiving. Hope everyone had a good one and didn't get too stuffed.

Sun, 22 Nov 2009 20:11:54 GMT

Riley is one month today.
Time sure does fly.

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 08:03:12 GMT

I'm in LOVE with Bon Iver!

Sat, 14 Nov 2009 01:23:12 GMT

I baked cookies. Lactation cookies.
And they turned out pretty good. I wasn't sure if they would because of two reasons.
One the ingredients didn't sound too awesome and two I've never baked cookies before. I was amazed when I tried one. Now, let's just hope they work.

I hit a wall with breastfeeding and my supply is suffering because of it. That's why I'm trying these cookies.

I feel like I have no support from Jeremy with breastfeeding. I mean...I know if I asked him if he supported my decision to breastfeed he would say yes but some of his [joking] comments make me think otherwise. Most likely it's just my hormones making me be more sensitive. I don't know. I'm hard on myself about breastfeeding too. And I definitely don't have the patients for it...I'm working on that though.

My boobs get itchy when I'm feeding Riley too.

Lavin got his first hair cut last Saturday. He cried at first but stopped not long after the guy started cutting. He looks so weird now. We are also trying potty training. He only goes pee pee in the potty if he's running around without a diaper or pull up on though. He doesn't tell us he has to go potty if he has something on. It's weird and I can't think of anything to try and get him out of that. We try to bribe him with candy but it doesn't work.

Anyway...

Lavin and his new hair. Jeremys' dad spiked his hair...I don't like it.

Halloween. He was a pirate again.

Riley was a pumpkin.

And another one of Riley. I love that sleeper.

10 Reasons Gay Marriage is Wrong

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 04:21:12 GMT

Taken from OTEPs' blog.

1] Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.

2] Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

3] Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven’t adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.

4] Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn’t changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can’t marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5] Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Brittany Spears’ 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.

6] Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile straight couples, and old people shouldn’t be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren’t full yet, and the world needs more children.

7] Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

8] Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That’s why we have only one religion in America.

9] Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That’s why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10] Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven’t adapted to the internet, wi-fi, women wearing pants, bi-racial marriage, working women, homogenized milk, GPS units, mobile phones, and MP3 players.

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 00:35:26 GMT

My boobs are stinging...
This can't be normal.

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 20:39:31 GMT

I have a headache and my eyes hurt.
Not being able to sleep 6 to 8 hours straight sucks.
I think I may be getting a sinus cold or whatever. Blah.

Anyway, I don't really suck at breastfeeding as I said I did a few days ago. I was just having a hard time that day. Riley wouldn't latch on at all and pumping wasn't going to well either because my milk hadn't come in yet. Him not latching on was discouraging and made me feel very
inadequate. Everything is awesome now though. So yay!

Lavin isn't scared of Riley anymore either. I still won't give him a kiss or hold him but he does come running when Riley starts crying. "What's wrong with baby brother?" is the first thing out of his mouth. It's cute.

We took three of our kitties to the Humane Society yesterday. Sucked. I didn't go in with Jeremy to hand them over because I knew I would cry like a little baby. I still cried just sitting in the car waiting on him. I hope they do ok and find homes. I'm not worried about the kittens but Sophi is already 2 years old which makes me worry she might not get adopted. Then again she's too pretty not to get adopted. Blah. You can definitely feel that the stress level in this house is down though. Which is nice. Very nice.

Fri, 30 Oct 2009 02:19:19 GMT

So I totally suck at breastfeeding.

The End.

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 02:36:21 GMT

I really don't like not know if I should go to the hospital or not.
My contractions are roughly 7 to 10 minutes apart but they hurt so bad!

Ahhhh, I don't like this.

Sat, 24 Oct 2009 22:38:55 GMT

These irregular contractions are really starting to piss me off.
Not only are they annoying but they are really uncomfortable at times.

Fri, 23 Oct 2009 04:55:26 GMT

OK...one more week. I go back to the OB on Wednesday. Unless he decides to come out before then.
[sigh] I am 1 to 2 centimeters though. I guess that is something to be semi-happy about.

Wed, 21 Oct 2009 00:31:39 GMT

Looking at recent pictures of Lindsey Lohan makes me feel better about myself.

Yes! I am one of those people.

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 05:40:19 GMT

So, I went to the OB Thursday...[I know that was days ago. I'm slacking.] Nothing had changed. I was still 1 cm. and 50%. Blah. I go back this Thursday and if he's not out before then we are going to start talking dates.

I'm hoping he stays put until Wednesday. Tomorrow is my cousins birthday and the 20th is my eldest brothers birthday. I SO don't want to have him on my brothers birthday because I ~~hate~~ dislike him for various reasons. [I don't even refer to him as uncle to Lavin. As a matter of fact I don't even say his name to Lavin. I always use that guy/a guy/some guy. Hm.]

Anyway, we got Lavin a toddler bed the other night and tonight is his first night actually sleeping in it. We actually got it Friday night but he wouldn't stay in bed. So he ended up in his crib again. Tonight we decided to try again. This time though Jeremy laid with him in the toddler bed but Lavin told him to get out. Yes, Lavin didn't want daddy laying in his bed with him, so Jeremy tried letting him lay in bed by himself but that didn't happen. He ended up getting out of bed and playing around like he did the first time. I ended up going in there and laying with him but when he told me to get out I told him no I'm staying right here and we are going to sleep. I think it was around 11:30 when he finally fell asleep and he didn't have a nap today either. That boy could go all night if we were to let him.

Fri, 09 Oct 2009 23:28:54 GMT

Went to the doctor today. I'm 1cm but not thinned at all. She stripped my membranes too. So things could start happening. Maybe. We'll see.

I'm SO hot. OMG!

The end.

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 18:57:50 GMT

Ok, so I suck at updating about our trip.
Right now though I'm trying to get things ready for the new little man. We still don't have a name picked out. Still have a lot of clothes to wash and find a place for. A lot of cleaning needs to be done. I'm so stressing over all of this too. I hate not being able to do much and having to ask Jeremy for so much. I feel bad. I feel like I have to ask him to do something or help me do something every five seconds. He already does so much.
And on top of all this, my dad keeps talking about how the cats need to find new homes and how they should just go to the Humane Society. That just adds more stress to my plate. After going on that two week trip with my dad I need a good two weeks away from my dad. Lol.

I guess since I'm already on here I'll post some pictures from Boston. We were only there for one night. We got there sometime in the afternoon though.

The first three are of Boston Garden.

We walked through Boston Common too but I'm not going to post any picture of it because they were having a Hemp Fest (yes, a festival for weed) and the pictures Jeremy took are basically picture of random people. Nothing worth posting in my opinion.

The next four picture are from Cheers. The bar that influenced the show Cheers.

We each had a picture with something cheers.

I half hid behind my menu.

Lavin took his with his cup. Goofy face.

And so did Jeremy.

Next six picture are of the tour we went on of the USS Constitution. I wasn't to excited about this until we actually got on the ship. It was pretty cool.

Canons.

Where the sailors slept.

The tiniest kitchen EVER. It was the size of a closet. And their were about 450 to 500 sailors that the cook would have to make food for. I would have hated being that cook. Lol.

This is a bell that was on the Harbor.

Picture from the Harbor.

And that is all. Didn't do much in Boston. Then again we were only there for about a day.

Ok, I'm going to go try and get some things done. Wish me luck! Lol.

Fri, 02 Oct 2009 12:17:26 GMT

6:25 am. I'm up and can't get my brain to shut up and I can go back to sleep, so I thought why not up date my journal.

First off yesterday I had a doctors appointment with my OB and I ended up being sent to the L&D because of my blood pressure. Yay. It was 140 something over 94. :\ Of course though when I get to the hospital everything is fine. They monitored my pressure and every time it was taken it was normal. I didn't have any protein in the pee either. Though my doctor is still having me do a 24 hour urine collection. I hate doing those.

As for the trip...
We first went to Pennsylvania to stay with my Uncle Rob. We stayed for about 3 days. Lavin had a blast because my Uncle lives in Altoona and that's like the city of trains. Er, something. Lol. Anyway, we went to Horseshoe Curve, The Railroaders Memorial Museum, Roaring Springs, and The Wall. The Wall is a replica of the national monument for the Vietnam Memorial in D.C. for anyone who didn't know. We also went Antiquing, which sucks with a 2 year old. We constantly had to tell him not to touch, just look. We tried teaching him "hands" where he would hold his hands behind his back. Works for about 5 minutes when we say it. Lol.

This is the view from Horseshoe Curve. It is so gorgeous up there.

Lavin hanging out waiting for a choo choo.

Lavin and Daddy still waiting on a choo choo. We waited for about an hour and a half, maybe two hours.

Then when one did come around it was only an engine pulling one other engine. After two hours of waiting...we'll take it. Lol.

Next up...

Attack of the 50 ft. Lavin.

They had a caboose outside that you could go in. Jeremy decide to have a photo op in the cabooses potty.

Us in front of the caboose.

Lavin having some fun on a choo choo they had. Is it weird that I say choo choo instead of train?

This was on the side of that choo choo...why, I'll never know.

Roaring Springs...
My favorite place in PA. DUCKS. EVERYWHERE!

This guy was flippin' huge.

Huge.

I liked this guys puff on his head. Cute.

Bottoms up!

There was also a crap load of fish and some of these fish were HUGE.

Lavin pretending to drink some spring water.

Lavin feeding the ducks and fish. It was funny watching the ducks and fish fight over food.

And across the street from Roaring Springs...and old train station that had a caboose. Picture with Grandpa.

The Wall and Antiquing...

The actual wall is soo much more impressive.

We thought that rose was real until Jeremy actually got down to take a picture of it.

Creepy house across the street from the Antique store.

This picture doesn't show much creepiness.

Teaching Lavin "hands".

The one time we actually wanted/let him touch something. It took forever to get this picture too. Go figure.

Playing in the back of the truck while Grandpa finished looking at stuff.

He started running his face down the back window of the truck.

I was going to update about the whole trip but after posting all those pictures I figured it would be best to break it up into different posts. That way ya'lls friend list gets a break and so do my fingers. Lol.

I'm sad to say that while we were on our trip my mom called to let us know that Monkey our little gray kitty passed away. We have no idea as to why he died. Mom said he was up playing with his sisters when she left for work and when she came back he was gone.

Poor Monkey.

8:15...That took forever.

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 01:48:05 GMT

So we got back from our trip yesterday evening. I know I should post about it but right now I really don't feel like it. We have a lot of pictures that I will be posting...I just don't know when.